Dawn

As the first blue light glow from the horizon,my mind is still not in the peace of sleep."If I sleep,......",I worried,"I might be losing more time than awake." Now,the pillow seems to be beckoning me to lie on it.As I shower myself with warm water,I told myself,"Its for the best,its for the best,its for......" For one night,the safety of my bed and dreams is left for the consciousness of reality.

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Tired.Just tired.My soul feels as if it has lived more than one lifetime.Its all gone but what left of it now.As I sit here and stare at this scenic view I wonder,"Am I really living a life?".I may not have lost anything of extreme value but I feel as I have.Maybe a soul perhaps?Remanence of my past haunts me to the bone.I lay here,in the darkness,waiting,for a light to save me or an end filled with solitude.

The First.

Love.Simple yet complicated.Neither perfect nor flawed.Its not about rainbows and happily-ever-afters.You have to work for love.You may get hit with a hockey stick or have to carry a drunk women through the streets of New York but who said it was gonna be easy.Love is the most wonderful feeling to ever be felt as a human being.Those who say love is like a nightmare has either never experience love or has been stripped away of their love.