The air was still, like the calm clarity I had in my heart. But my mind was swamped by an ocean of emotion. Love. Joy. Fear. Passion. Excitement. You name it. But I was sure, just as sure the sun was shining, that every step I took was what I was meant to do. What I wanted to do.
"Hey, didn't think you would be here? What's up?", she said, with a smile so sweet I'd get diabetes in a second.
"You look like you have something on your mind? Well, don't just stand there, spit it out!"
Always the pushy one.
"Well, I don't really know how to put it in words...". Smooth sailing so far, you dumb ass.
"Well, then bark it to me. I speak dog. Or you can choose around 13 other non-human languages I can understand. Why not whale talk?". She began to make some sounds that were more like a sick cow than a whale.
"Stop it, i'm trying to be a tad bit serious here and you are not making it any easier.", feeling slightly flustered.
"Well, you are being ridiculous. Don't know how to put it in words?!? Come on! Just say what you want to say. I know you didn't come all the way to this side of town just to stand here and say that! So, please, the suspense is killing me.", ending her sentence with a sly smirk that made me feel unsure of how much she already knows.
"Here it goes. The reason why I don't know how to put it in words is because I never had to. Never needed to. It was always been there for as long as I could think with a clear mind, which is a while back." I stopped, try to catch my breath and hopefully some courage as well. She stood in front of me, listening attentively.
"When I go to bed, you are the last thing on my mind. When I wake up, you are the first thought that comes to mind. When i'm eating cereal, I wonder if you are having the same cereal as I am. When I am anywhere, I wonder where you are.", I said, with no regard to the consequences. I heard her say something about being obsessive under her breath but took no notice.
"I can't sleep, eat, drink, talk, or do anything sexually related without thinking about you. Okay, maybe you didn't need to know about that.", I can feel myself blushing to death.
"Well, a little too much detail, but go on", she said, standing stoically against all the shit i'm saying.
"I think to put it simply, I love you. I just love you. That's just it. I just do. And I don't know what to do about it. I tried to deny it, hide it, kill it, bury it, shoot it, and everything in between. And I just can't think straight. And here I am, standing in front of you, doing what I think is absolute insanity. But I just had to. I just wanted you to know. And to know whether...", I paused, choking on the words I just couldn't make myself say.
She just stood there, as the sun began to descend from the sky, and I started to wish that she would do something. I couldn't tell what she was feeling, as I was being washed away with mine. I was holding back tears, hopes, dreams, wishes, nightmares, and thinking that I would break down any second, but I didn't. I couldn't. Not in front of her.
She began to walk pass me on the sidewalk, with her emotions unreadable, with steps so fast, she was closer to her car then from me in less than 3 seconds. I felt like my heart just dropped right on the sidewalk.
Then she turned around, looking annoyed. She walked with the same pace back to where I was standing. I haven't moved an inch from just now, only turning to see her go.
Her face was red as she walked towards me. She then leaned and kissed me. And I thought, damn. She was perfect. She then grabbed my arm and hauled me back in the direction of her car. I couldn't even feel my legs, so I just followed. I heard her mumbling to herself. " About time."
She was perfect. Always had been. She was worth it. Every single bit. And now she's mine. God, I must be dead cause this is heaven.
