The Raya Chronicles:The Exodus

I woke up for sahur after only barely sleeping for an hour,had fried rice and the usual milo,then went upstairs and FB-ed a little,chat with my biatch,Alia,then packed like the entire contents of my room in a miserly sized bag.Baju melayu,of course,with samping,last year's baju melayu,outing clothing,jeans,stay-at-home clothes,shorts,undies,a pair of socks(don't know why,i don't even wear sneakers),vital toiletries,chargers,towel and a book,Percy J and The Sea of Monsters.There you go,short,simple and to the point.Then,bathed and played with the pc while waiting for everyone to get ready,then went downstairs to see my sister's friend that came.After that,i helped my insatiable mother to pack everything,i also wrapped the mango fruits from the tree mentioned in 'Yesterday and Today' cause there's bloodthirsty squirrels lingering around and those mangoes are like,well...mangoes to those squirrels.Then,we kicked out my sister's friends and got the family in the car,almost,my brothers are on the next shuttle whereby my elder brother is driving,then off we go,the exodus has finally begun.

I was unconscious throughout the journey cause damn,i was tired,one hour of sleep,damn it.I think we stopped to buy fruits,but hell,we could have been in the Bahamas for all i care.Then,i got up in front of my uncle a.k.a Pak Long's house and we had a little chat,watched his rabbits.Rabbits,and lots of it.A lot.My sister keep saying some of them look like those bunnies you see on batteries,Energizer bunnies.

Then,we went to ze house,my atuk's house,sturdy,same as ever,except for the new fans he put up.Then,blank,sleep deprivation does that to a person.Then,woke up,almost buka puasa,help make sirap bandung,the real shit,not those cheap imitation types.I ate the most delicious chicken ever,it was just...speachless.They bought it while i was dead,and as my sis and i would say it was "juicy,juicyyyy".

Then,went to Wetex,this shopping mall in Muar and i bought a long-sleeved shirt and a T-shirt.Then,went back,cleaned the house a little,ate oranges,watched tv,FB,ate some more oranges,bathed,and here i'm.Well,gotta sleep now,damn,its 4:12,bye now,muax muax.

Gifts.

"I'd always known that I'd love you.From the first moment i saw you,you took more than my breath away.You are a dream,one that i will never wake up from.You are the sun in my face,the wind in my hair and everything that makes me complete.For that,I'll give you gifts,for you to keep.

I'll give you my eyes,so that you have something to stare at when you ever feel lonely or sad,so that you can see the proof of how much i love you.

I'll give you my ears,so that you will have someone to listen to you whenever you have a problem or when you just want to talk,so that you know someone does want to hear your voice that still lingers in my ears.

I'll give you my hands,so you can hold it whenever you feel scared or just need someone to hold to,so that you know there will be someone to catch you if you fall,but will still hold you in case he falls,which fortunately,he does.

and I'll give you my heart,so that you can always feel my love for you,its warmth and so you'd know the very reason it beats,fast or slow,is for you.Unfortunately,i can't give you my heart,because i can't find it,i think you already have it."

Yesterday and today.

Exhausted.Didn't get much sleep today.Went to see my grandmother this morning,we cleaned up,plant a tree and my mom recited the Yassin for her.Didn't know her that much but i still love her and wished she's still here.I remember the day she passed,i was still too young to know what grieving is,the only thing i known is that the van that brought her was the same that was at the mosque where i went to religious school,which i found very odd because it was like a 45 minute drive from my aunt's house where she passed.

Then,after that,we went to my mother's friend's house and bought one of the largest stash of firecrackers...well,we rarely buy these,if we do its just one or two,but damn,it cost 160 ringgit.My mom also bought soap,like he sells soap,J&J...like okay.

After that,i was in and out of consciousness,woke up at a nursery in Bangsar.A plant nursery.Got out of the car and bought some plants.Went inside and then unconscious again.Woke up at another bloody nursery at USJ 12,i think,sleep again.Then a tree woke me up.Mango tree to be precise.My mom just had to buy that tree she wanted.

Then,went back and boy was i tired,i practically fainted on the floor,but my mom and her relentless efforts to spruce up the lawn dragged me out to plant her precious mango tree,first we planted it in a pot,then after much arguing,planted it on the ground.Then we planted a fruit plant,i don't know what's it called in English,mengkudu they call it.Then i went inside lie down on the floor,got up and took a bath,then say good bye to my sis,going back to Banting,then continued on gardening.Then,buka puasa and blah blah blah here i am.

Oh and i had a blast yesterday at my grandaunt's house.Awesome possum,as my sister would have said.She had a birthday party for her grandchildren/buka puasa gathering.Super fun,mingle with la aunt Haliza or Aunty Liz and her daughter,eat and whatnot.Oh,and we played musical chairs,hahahah that was fun.I was the winner against the last year's winner,Aunty Liz.Till next year,Aunty Liz.Ate cake and talk,took pictures,see fireworks,lovely as ever.

Sometimes i wonder the point of living life,the point of continuing on this unrelenting journey filled with...well,shit and stuff.But we often get a remainder why we continue on this epic battle to an uncertain end,because of all the love and loved ones we find and live with on our way.