Rerun.

"History has a habit of repeating itself"

*sigh*

Let's start from last Tuesday.Went to Immigrations Department.Never thought anybody could died of boredom.Well,nobody did but why take the chance.The only interesting thing that happened there was this one time,we where waiting for our number to come,in the almost still silence,the person at the counter announced..."Siti Nurhaliza,Kaunter 10" and everybody started to chuckle.It was pretty funny when the person was not exactly the singer herself.I couldn't imagine the feelings of the poor girl who had to answer that call with her father.Oh,how humiliating.Later,had breakfast while waiting for my passport which was ready pretty fast.

Then,went to SJMC,which is now SDMC due to the fact of Sime Darby taking over.Oh,what memories i had there.For those who don't know,well...i don't divulge on my past that often to people so basically everyone,i practically stayed there once upon a time.Had this disease which...well let's not talk about that,let's just say I'm better now.Waited like a very restless teenager who was fugly tired caused by waking up so early in the morning,in which sleeping late does not help,and making it sinful cause its the holidays,oh.. for my mother's checkup.Well,its for my mother so it was okay.At least i got a Mars bar later,that made my day.

Let us not forget about yesterday.

Went to Sunway,had fun.Went shopping for a new purse.Watched a movie,a malay movie to be precise,don't get me wrong,i support my people's movie but they have a tendency of fucking them up with their lame jokes and stupidity,thinking it would attract people to watch.Well that sure backfired.So i resented to watch this movie but whoa was i wrong,well it wasn't bad as i thought,okay i admit,it was good,for a change once.It was 'Lagenda Budak Setan' but it had not much devilishness in it,more towards love and romance.You should watch it,it was great.There was supposed to be Zera there with us so it was basically a boy's day out halfway through our day.Later,we went to Zera and then Alia came so it was not that manly after that.Talked at Manhattan about gossips and controversies among our ilk.Had a fun day,well almost.My happy mood was totally smacked far of the wall when i was waiting for my ride.

My mother kept calling me where to pick me up and i kept saying at the new wing,and she kept calling and calling.At last i had to walk to the other end of the fucking building just to get to the car,and of course i was pissed,and my brother did not make it any more the better.Ugh.

Bought new books,the long awaited True Singapore Ghost Stories series 20 and Percy Jackson.By now i already finished Percy J's book.The book was great,i always had a fascination about Greek mythology so it was just like....just like H again,he reminded me of...remember the similarity in difference post...yes that.I choose that book because of the fact that it reminded me of me,sort of.

Just in H,just in Percy,i saw myself,i saw who I'm now,weak,naive and down right stupid.But,i saw them succeeding,triumphant over their adversity and i somehow longed for it.I want to be them in a way.I don't want to be....me,its not that i don't accept my fate,is just that fate has been battering hard on me and i get a hopeless a lot in my life but them,they managed to rise above it all and somehow made it.What made me like them more is that they are normal,well not like other heroes who somehow seem like they were destined to be heroes,they made themselves from normality to become heroes.I wanted that.Still do.And i just feel so hopeless,so lost,so....me.