Yesterday and today.

Exhausted.Didn't get much sleep today.Went to see my grandmother this morning,we cleaned up,plant a tree and my mom recited the Yassin for her.Didn't know her that much but i still love her and wished she's still here.I remember the day she passed,i was still too young to know what grieving is,the only thing i known is that the van that brought her was the same that was at the mosque where i went to religious school,which i found very odd because it was like a 45 minute drive from my aunt's house where she passed.

Then,after that,we went to my mother's friend's house and bought one of the largest stash of firecrackers...well,we rarely buy these,if we do its just one or two,but damn,it cost 160 ringgit.My mom also bought soap,like he sells soap,J&J...like okay.

After that,i was in and out of consciousness,woke up at a nursery in Bangsar.A plant nursery.Got out of the car and bought some plants.Went inside and then unconscious again.Woke up at another bloody nursery at USJ 12,i think,sleep again.Then a tree woke me up.Mango tree to be precise.My mom just had to buy that tree she wanted.

Then,went back and boy was i tired,i practically fainted on the floor,but my mom and her relentless efforts to spruce up the lawn dragged me out to plant her precious mango tree,first we planted it in a pot,then after much arguing,planted it on the ground.Then we planted a fruit plant,i don't know what's it called in English,mengkudu they call it.Then i went inside lie down on the floor,got up and took a bath,then say good bye to my sis,going back to Banting,then continued on gardening.Then,buka puasa and blah blah blah here i am.

Oh and i had a blast yesterday at my grandaunt's house.Awesome possum,as my sister would have said.She had a birthday party for her grandchildren/buka puasa gathering.Super fun,mingle with la aunt Haliza or Aunty Liz and her daughter,eat and whatnot.Oh,and we played musical chairs,hahahah that was fun.I was the winner against the last year's winner,Aunty Liz.Till next year,Aunty Liz.Ate cake and talk,took pictures,see fireworks,lovely as ever.

Sometimes i wonder the point of living life,the point of continuing on this unrelenting journey filled with...well,shit and stuff.But we often get a remainder why we continue on this epic battle to an uncertain end,because of all the love and loved ones we find and live with on our way.