"It's three in the morning and i am sitting outside a balcony looking out to the horizon. My Sassy Girl was on the tv just now and i turned it off before it could end. They were just leaving each other for the year and i couldn't bear all those nonsensical bullshit. Yeah, i am a bitter person, you can say that. A victim of cruel circumstance, but that is a little far fetched i suppose.
I watched the movie when i first fell in love, and it was like clouds and candy and all the good things in the world. Now it's all a bunch of garbage. I was a hopeless romantic. I was a dumb kid. I thought love conquered all and if love is true, it will find a way. Naive and stupid, great combination.
And now this heart has stopped cold. I wanted love and got none. So i turned to the next best thing. Lust. Not a great substitute. It made me into something i hate.
And now, as i stare into the dark horizon and hear the soothing sound of crickets in the night, gazing into glowing yellow orbs clustering at the edge of my view, i wonder.
Can i ever love someone as deep and as full of passion and desire as i did then?
You don't know how much i wish it could be. I want to. But as i heard from what (out of all places) a museum curator had to say, "If it's broken, we can put the pieces back together. But if it is obliterated, what can we do?"
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