Reconcile

Hi.
It's been a while, i know. But i needed time for myself. I've been on holiday for a while and i love how you lose track of time in it. I've been feeling better, and worse. Well, you fix one thing another breaks down. I kinda learned to accept that.

I'm sorry about the post before, it seemed kinda.... weird writing in anger. I usually don't like being angry. But i kinda mellowed out a bit and accepted things, you know? It takes time to clear out anger and bring reason into things. I need to learn to be happy just for me, and not let my expectations of people ruin who i am.

Anyway, I've been feeling a little conflicted. I just can't seem to reconcile two opposing ideals. To be who I desire or to be what's right. It's been making me all confused. But I think i need to just let it go. Just not think to much about absolutes and just suffice with being somewhere in between. It's not ideal, but it's better than nothing.

I'm going to start writing again. A little bit at a time. I don't know about what though. Any suggestions? I always like imagining I'm some sort of character or in a situation. I'd be a guy who was born with the gift of necromancy and the next I'll imagine how to survive under the radar of people and away from my family. One second I'm a Eldar Druid in one of my imagined elven world and the next I'm planning a children's book titled 'The Girl Who Reached For The Stars'.

I have a weird brain i guess.