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I'm a good actor.



Today I saw the sky in all its glory.It was just beautiful.But yet I was not ecstatic.Recently i don't feel happy at all.I feel so consumed by dread and sorrow.I don't know how to say this.I feel like crying tears of blood.This year has been the saddest year in my life.

Maybe i'm being just a little dramatic but friends keep going and going for the past two months till i feel so lost now.I just don't know what to do.I feel like screaming and begging them "STOP,DON'T GO!!!", but you can't stop them from doing whats right.Seeing them go one by one is as painful as being stabbed.They always say "We'll still be friends,don't worry :)",but it will never be the same.Never.I know a little too well.They have befriended me for quite some time and even though sometimes we'll be a little distant,i know i can always count on them.

Now,most of them have gone and some will be going soon.A punishment from above.I have always thought that i was fated to suffer for others.Seems like it.When they go,i'll say my goodbyes,wish them well and make peace with my soul.They'll ask "Will you be fine being alone?".I'll say that i'll be just fine.What they didn't know is.......









I'm a good actor.