Retaliation.

Life is never what it seems to be. Never. We go through life with the highest hopes and with extreme trepidation,but with a rebellious streak hidden somewhere inside it all. We picture everything in our minds,the worst,the best. But in the end,it seems never goes to plan,in a good way,and bad too. But that's life. We just suck it up and do it all over again,taking more risks and making more mistakes than before.

I am beginning to like life in this way. I am a person who plans meticulously,a little to much i might add. I blame it on God,my mom and a cup of sugar every morning. Life's unpredictability makes me go with the flow,and i like going with the flow,there's no planing in it. Makes me more calm,centered,and independent. I used to say to myself that i loved the old me,the one that is always happy,always hopeful,always dreaming of other worlds with no care of the one I'm in.

And I still love him. But,to tell the truth,I didn't like him when I was him. He was too perky for my taste,I am partly goth in nature. He was stronger but weaker as well. He was unstable,like potassium. Looks docile,but one dip in water and boom,there he goes. Now i'm just broken,but i think i'm okay with it. Everyone's broken in some way. I learned where to put my emotions,and to whom should i invest them in. I'm wiser,i guess. Let us all hope that.

Now,I'm going away,and my posts will be stretched even more thin and may even be non-existent,but i guess that's life. Make do with what you have. I'll be supposedly making new friends and attempt to learn something,and learn how to be fucking independent and shit. And maybe even find a new me,which I'm desperate to find because being broken is not fun,i prefer to be fixed.