Average?

Yes, I am a guy who watches obsessively Phineas and Ferb nearly everyday all day, tends to a garden and finds chick lit a little more than entertaining than the usual male specimen. That's just who i am. And I like who i am, most of the time. To tell you the truth, i don't know how the hell i got the way i am. But what i do know is i am definitely not the average joe. I am just one weird motherf**ker.

Even with all the weird shit i do, i always wonder why people seem to steer away from me. Do i have body odour or something? Well, i do, at times, but that doesn't explain why i seem to repel people like a magnet? I wonder with a certain degree of amazement and utter bewilderment. Because i try with a fevorous zeal to make people like me. I do. I make small talk. I make jokes. I get intimate (well, as intimate as i want). I listen. I make an impression. I remember to at least try to be good person.

But it seems I always get thrown back into an ocean of undesirable fishes as if i meant nothing to most people. And trust me, it gets increasingly depressing to try to make friends but i still do try at times. Don't get me wrong, i do have very good friends that i find to be the most wonderful people i have ever met, but a high percentage seem to either have severe amnesia or maybe just hate me silently. I'm guessing it's the amnesia, i should think twice before i invite people to go anvil hanging.

*sigh*

Or maybe i'm just dull and boring? Nah, that's not it. I'll admit, I am antisocial at times but when you get me going i am just a party animal. *growls sensually*

I had this friend, a girl, and we are like super close back in high school. Well, maybe that's just me. Anyway, we went our separate ways and i spent a year away from home at matrics where i rarely talk to her cause i don't own a laptop then and i could only borrow it from my darling roommate Rashdan at times and even that i didn't dare ask him for internet because i didn't want to push my luck.

Blablabla then i got out and i tried to reconnect with her. I tried to chat with her every chance i got and all i got was halfhearted replies and it was just me trying rather desperately to keep the conversation going. I tried and tried and then finally i just stopped trying. I just got tired of investing my emotion. I don't blame her much, maybe we were no longer on the same terms or anything. But i just hate it when people i value drift apart from me like clouds in the sky. It makes me sad.

Last week or so, it was her birthday and i wanted to wish her so badly but i just couldn't. I just felt like it was a waste of my time. And now that it passed, i felt kinda bad that i didn't. Alia, if you're reading this somehow, happy birthday.

I call these group of people 'The Lost Ones'. People who meant something to me but we drift apart as what fate has written for us. I have a few more people, some i tried to reconnect the same way but apparently i had lost them too, but i'd rather not mention. I guess God has plans for all of us. I just wished He would give me a heads up on those stuff.

Ahhh, actually the reason why i started to write this post was because i read this article on why girls only seem to date bad guys and stuff like that. Hahaha. It turned out to be something else entirely.

I always think myself as a good guy and one thing is for sure is that i personally don't care if girls prefer bad guys over good ones. Why do i want to change my good self just to get chicks? I'd consider it if that girl happens to be Megan Fox but other than that i won't do it. Some consider being bad or a player or whatever kids these days say to be cool and whatnot, but i think being good is the best way to get the right girl. Basically by being good you eliminate all other potential unstable and crazy girls that like them bad boys and attract all them good kind of girls that  you wanna marry and have babies and shit.

That to me seems like a good thing. I'd rather get rejected a hundred times by girls rather than mistreating and possibly missing my chance at one good catch. Well, that's how i see it. I don't know how i'd feel after having being rejected by a hundred girls but i'll let you know if i ever get there.

Till then, i just have to be the same old me. Weird, childish, loner, know-it-all, strongly opinionated (someone actually told my sister that i am a very opinionated person. god, i never knew i was one), joker, and pretty much an awesome person in my opinion. And above all, not your average everyday kind of guy.