Immortality

Hi. I just had a bath and i was mulling something over, like everyone does when they take a warm shower. I watched this documentary on human belief on National Geographic with Morgan Freeman called "The Story of God" which i find kinda humourous due to him playing God in a few movies.

They showed all the belief of the afterlife based on different religions and also about a lady basically digitalising her partner so that she can be immortal cause she said she can't live without her partner (they were lesbians, btw, hahaha, idk why i had to say that, just for clarity) I find it weird that my mom thinks people trying to find immortality kinda blasphemous, but understandable i suppose.

In addition, i watched this unusual movie called 'Slow West', a kinda indie movie about a guy trying to find his killer girlfriend in the old west, with help from a fugitive/guide Michael Fassbender. Ahhh, such a dreamy hotstuff Mcmuffin. You guys should watch 'Shame' if you want to know how sexy that man is. Hahaha, i am super sleepy cause it's 5 in the morning. I think it's getting to me.

(Side note here, i saw in that movie an excellent example of what i call visual metaphor, kinda ironic really. When the lover guy, Jay, finally meets his girl, she shoots him (accidentally, she was fighting away bounty hunters). Then a Red Indian guy who helped her kiss her on the cheek to calm her down while this Jay guy is bleeding on the floor. Then a bullet shatters a container above Jay, and salt come pouring down on his bullet wound.

Hence the term rubbing salt on one's wound.

Hahaha. I loved that movie at that precise moment. It has a sad ending though.)

Anyway, back on track. I was thinking in the shower and i thought about how i wanna be remembered by people for the good that i have done. It's how i hope to achieve immortality. My actions in this world would create ripples that benefit humanity, which in turn make me immortal through remembrance.

But i said to myself, by wanting so, i wouldn't be good at all. I would be just chasing fame and glory. Not true benevolence.

At that moment i realize why, in Islam at least, we should always do good because of God, and not because of anybody or anything else. We must place Him first before anyone else.

If you do good for people, then what happens if those people turn on you? You would stop, right? If it's for money, fame, glory? If you don't get it, the good you do would stop. But if you do it for God, then you kinda have to do it for eternity.

I guess that's the point. You need something to do good for so that doing all those stuff has meaning and purpose but that something has to be outside of the realm of manipulation so that the good you do doesn't impact you or society negatively. Kinda smart i suppose.

So, i guess intentional immortality through remembrance is out of the picture. I'll have to actually do something really good without all them hubris to get to that.

But i guess that's the point really. You do good for everyone and let the most just and benevolent, God to reward you accordingly. The path to benevolence, at least on a theocentric point of view.

*sigh*

I also feel like my blog is a part of that attempt to be immortal. I want something of me, my thoughts, my ideas, my opinions, my emotions, to just be somewhere in this cold world. So, that maybe one day it would enlighten someone, or give someone hope, or just make them laugh. It would mean that even death cannot stop me from making a difference in this world.

Suddenly my blog is like a philosophy class. Hahaha

Meh, i like being all philosophical and shit. I like big questions and blabbering on the possible answers. That's how i roll.

I should go to sleep now. Bye.