Spectrum

I love walking down the beach at dawn. I do it whenever we have vacations by the sea. I am not a morning person, mind you. I rather spend mornings in bed. This counts as the very few exceptions i would ever make for early morning activities.

There is something about the seaside that draws me and yet pushes me away. Like the tide. I love it so much. I could sit and stare at the sea for ages. It's so peaceful and calming. Repetitive.

I feel like for that moment the ocean and i are one. And all the woes and worries, sorrows and darkness, melts away. Washed anew everything i know. I forget my family, friends, people and.... just be me for a second.

I've loved the ocean ever since i was small going on holidays, making sandcastles and looking for clams. My best memories are by the sea. With its wind caressing every strand of my hair, its spectrum of rays that change every single moment of the day and its clear pristine waters revitalising my soul.

There is nothing like it.

I feel kinda stupid trying to explain it to people. I know people don't feel it like i do. Like a deep underlying link steming from an understanding older than maybe both of us.

At the same time, i learned one of the greatest lesson of life right by the waters i love, that nothing is permanent.

Time goes. Things change. People leave. Holidays ends.

It's sort of unnerving, sometimes even scary to look at beauty of the sea, or anything for that matter, and think it will never last never or look the same as of right now. And both you and everything are morphed by each other presence.

What a weird and beautiful world we live in.

In my mind, heaven is by the sea. With my family and friends. All smiling and happy against the waves of the sea.