H.T.T.Y.D.

*listening to Lady Antebellum-Need You Now*


*breathing heavily*


*sigh*


First things first,thanks to Diana,Nadirah,Adrina,and Alia.Those ears you lend to me was really appreciated and I thought you should know that ears are a precious gift you can give to people.It's better that a nose,noses are just so....well,nosey.

So,as you can see...still not cured.Thanks to D my ailment now has an acronym.For your information,H.T.T.Y.D doesn't scare me okay (D still picturing me running around the lab, screaming,huh?).
Its not scary at all,its just that when i see,think,picture,imagine or relate anything to H.T.T.Y.D,

*thud-thud*

It hurts.Its like hiting a brick wall.It remainds me that...

It hurts living in this thing you people call a body and living a life close enough for the devil to call its home.
It hurts trying to cope with everything people throw at you and expect you to catch them.
It hurts trying to adapt to surroundings that changes every second.
It hurts trying to lift yourself up when things are at its lowest.
It hurts just to breathe.
It hurts being me.

*thud-thud*

As i'm typing,the rain is pouring outside,thunder shakes the earth.
Thunder.
'The offspring of lightning and death'. *thud-thud*

Every day,
every time i look up to the sky *thud-thud*

Today,it got worse as i entered MPH and saw the book about H.T.T.Y.D.
Imagine a 747 falling on you in a bookstore.*thud-thud-thud*

I just want life to be a little easier,less stressful,more hopeful,and down right like in H.T.T.Y.D.
Simple.Easy,To the point.
I just want somebody to be loyal to me and to be loyal at,to be with me through thick and thin,to stand by me whatever the situation.(I just can't trust humans as well as i did,they just too....)

IS THAT SO F**KING TOO MUCH TO ASK,HUH?!!!!!

*sigh*

Usually,before i sleep i sing to myself just to relax before escaping to anywhere and everywhere.

Nowadays,i either trying to comfort myself with words that do nothing or failing at that and sleeping in a pool of tears.

'thank you for summing that up' *thud-thud*