Please,can I turn around?

"It stills hurt when I look to the sky.It reminds me of you.Don't know why it hurts.But no matter whatever happens,I won't forget you,I'll never stop believing you.And,maybe,one day,tomorrow,next week,next year or in the next life,I will join you,up there,flying with you,together,only be separated by God and gravity.But not today.Not now.So be it.But one day..."

*sighs*

Okay,I remembered something that happened to me I think 2 years ago,can't remember when it happen but what happen I remembered in high definition.

We were visiting family members,friends,and long lost aunts during raya and on our way my mother was frantically trying to find our bearings and when we did we we were not that sure.So I said,"Never mind,if we took the wrong turn we can still turn around",but my mother insisted and said it would be hard as we were on the highway.I,don't know what possessed me,sternly said we can turn around.

I think,its because i wanted it,that option,that choice,to turn around if things went wrong,that option to change the course of my life if i felt necessary.I wanted that option.Surely we all have choices,in the situation above we could turn around if we took the wrong turn but we feel like that was not a choice at all,and even if we felt like turning around was a choice,it would be as if jumping of a plane with an umbrella,ludicrous.Any and every choice we make would have its pros and cons,but that's the risk of making choices.

So always feel,no,always know that you always have a choice,you always have an alternative if you feel like the first choice is not to your liking.Some might think that when you went for fashion design/decided to play the piano/bought that red top at Elle was a stupid and crazy decision but its not their decision to make.Its yours.I think they don't mean to disagree with your choices,they just care so much for your well being or scared to make those choices themselves.

So,go,make that choice,go,buy that top at Elle,let them feel your bravery and confidence and maybe one day they'll share it with you.And if you ever feel that your choice is wrong,then you will have to realize and face the risk of making choices,that you might have to face the hardship of.....


turning around.


Love,
Hiccup.