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It is three in the morning. I am on my bed and I thought, what a great time to write something. Though i'll be posting this a bit later on due to me being too tired to connect to the internet.

You know, I have been thinking about relationships a lot of late. Idk, maybe it is just the thing that comes with age. Hormones, messing things up since puberty.

Anyway, I just feel like I should be in one. Hahaha. I know it seems a little forward but yeah, i'd love one. One relationship, please, extra love and no cheating on the side. I know it seem like with my emotions being so unstable, i am just insane to think such. Well, I should listen to insanity once in a while.

It took me a while to get to this stage. I kinda went into a major depressive moment during my high school days because of that magic little thing called love. Alas, it is all water under the bridge now. I know, took me like eons to get over a girl. I am just not the kinda guy that likes something and let them go as easily.

I've been trying to avoid relationships because I had a few hiccups that I thought would be a pretty bad thing in relationship, including the emotions. But then I thought, hell, these shit is me, its basically who I am, and it is not going away soon. So what the heck.

Though I do not want to burden my partner with my volatile emotions, i'd rather have the good side of the sandwich that is yours truly, not the side with the pickles. I even thought of going for counselling, but never got to it. Ha, such a lazy ass. I just don't want my girl to have to worry too much about how I am. I need professional help, i'll get to it, eventually.

Aside from the crazy-stay-away-warning sign I just placed on my forehead, I still think I should be in a relationship. But alas, even by being a very intelligent and good looking guy, I find it hard to get the chicks. God knows, must be the beard. Hahaha. Oh, I have a beard/ goatee thing going on now, I kinda like it.

This post is just insane now I think about it. Meh. I just want a girl to love, you know. Someone nice, funny, entertaining, smart, outgoing, and just downright awesome. And a killer smile, can't forget that. Someone to hold when thing get too rough and to talk to when life gets too out of hand.

Hmmmmm, is that person out there? A guy has to have his dreams. Cross all fingers, eh?